Ive been directed by a few friends to listen to Eckart Tolle. He is quite interesting, if the subject matter is not relevant to me, his voice is calming and comforting. His talk on suffering and pain body however has resonated with me. By becoming aware of triggers of anger, depression, irritability etc, we can fearlessly unpack these emotions and deal with them. For me, its depression, if I allow the feeling to come, examine their content, try to put myself in the third person to observe, this often brings the emotions into perspective. then…. they will dissipate, their power, no longer holding us ransom, no longer instilling great fear and anxiety. this does not happen overnight, it will become a practice, why do they not teach us this at school.. The second most  powerful modality of healing to me is , do not think too much! We will use up and waste our life. My life has been very colorful and expansive the past 2 years. I have tried to do whatever my soul and body wants me to…this includes daily drum practice , guitar playing, reading and of course seeking out and finding a loving relationship with whomever I wanted. in my case it was a lovely, quirky, writer and musician. She taught me alot about love,  healing and poetry , and of course music.   Unfortunately, a few pain bodies arose and I realized their are parts of myself that need healing some more……

I am now living in a mobile on my own property and renting out my house. this will hopefully enable me to continue to play and practice and travel. Either that or really appreciate the amenities such as running hot water, but again i feel like an explorer, nothing my relatives coming over from europe to Saskatchewan didnt have to deal with, after all i am their relative.

Any thoughts or comments on any of these subjects are welcomed…..Kathy